I know I am against complaining and I don't want it to sound like that...but I'm really frustrated. I have yet to understand the human brain when it comes to memorizing things. Example, I was doing math the other day and I drew a blank on so many problems I literally almost cried. I used to hammer out the answers faster than a speeding bullet. Now I'm frustrated I'm not prestigious in it. I'm trying to learn Chemistry, Physiology, microbiology, algebra, English and so many other subjects, that I feel so overwhelmed and incapable of being successful at anything! I see other people my age do tons more work than I am in college and I can't handle these subjects with the same grace?
I'm trying to reach this level of prestige that I've set for myself mentally. If I fail to reach that bar then I have failed. I will not beat around the bush: my worth is based solely on my academic knowledge. If I can't do calculus or trig without 100% success in EVERY problem and angle, then I as a person am a complete failure and worthless on all levels of humanity.
There just aren't enough hours in the day to do everything and I try to make as much time for school as I possibly can. I need to be better.
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