What does life even mean?!!!

Life is the most annoying thing on this planet. I'm not sure which part but every fiber of this earth is driving me insane!! I know we are a grape tomato but like I said, it's hard to figure out what's wrong. There are so many different things on earth that we forget. That there are other worlds in every persons' head. I know I have a ton of different worlds and personalities in mine, no one will ever get to see or feel them and I'm the only one that will have access to them. I could never describe it enough if given the time, either. I know what I'm writing right now makes no sense but maybe someday I can relate to what I'm even saying. I confuse myself sometimes. It's like something else has taken over my mind and I can't think or do what I really want because I'm held hostage somewhere in my psyche. I know that's strange but I can't describe it any better. It's almost like I'm staying alive to keep this other being, that's in charge of my every thought and action, alive. I can't rid it. All I can do is try to understand why it's there.