Motivation

Yeah...it's not as easy as you think. People always say "force yourself to motivate yourself," "You have to want to want it" or some bull like that. I agree with them, I really do; that's how I finished a whole 9th grade math textbook in 30 days during my homeschool years. Sometimes it's easy to force yourself but sometimes the mentality is just plain dead. Seriously. You can have all the posters, quotes, John Wayne movies playing in the background, or even have the American flag hanging above the door...but sometimes none of that is enough to zap you back to reality. OH THERE GOES GRAVITY!! (Sorry Eminem, I just had to rap you, it was too tempting). Anyways...as I was saying before Eminem's song got trapped in my head.
I have been trying so hard to finish Algebra 2 so I can get into physics and trig. Since 2011 I have halted and basically haven't done a problem since November 2012. That's sad. Not "sad" as in pessimism but sad as in "pathetic." I have basically looked up motivational quotes, videos, and even googled "How to motivate yourself to do school." Basically it boils down to my mentality...I'm burned out. No amount of motivation will bring me back unless I personally jump start my mind...I have to make up my own. I get motivated for 5 minutes and I'm right back where I started. I get more jealous than motivated. I know, I'm responsible for getting off my rear end...but I don't have the mental energy for some reason. Maybe if I take it slow and not set the limit of one month per book. Do you know how stupid that is? I KNOW, right?! Comparing my progress to others doesn't help either, it just makes me more frustrated with myself...it makes me not want to try. So maybe I should just focus on what I'm doing and not the Joneses...even if they are getting out there faster.