Social Anxiety, the reality.

Maybe not the reality for everybody, but you get it. Yes, basically you're treated like a piece of trash, dog meat, or whatever. Suddenly you become a burden to people when you're "the shy one." Isn't it so wonderful having that title? It's like, now you're a label. That's right my friends. You are a labeled piece of trash. If you have social anxiety/phobia you can't expect people to understand. They just think you have a shy personality and that you can get over it by introducing yourself to the public somehow. You just have to "get out of your shell." Um yeah..its a lot more complicated than that. It's a psychological disorder for Pete's sake. You can't just get over it. So deal.
Everybody treats you like a baby like you can't fend for yourself just because you've had a few "attacks" with those people before. They think you're slow and that you're incapable of doing something. That may ring true, but where's the faith?! Seriously. If you just give me the benefit of the doubt and not say "I'd like to do that but I know you wouldn't do that." I hate the ignorance of people and how they think it's a "shy" problem. If you're shy that's one thing; you can do things when you're shy, you just don't talk to people. But with social anxiety/phobia you can't do anything. You over-think the slightest outing, "What should I do, what should I say, I know I'll look weird, what will happen..." and it goes on and on and on. It's like you're handicapped, well mentally you are I guess. It's frustrating. It's not like I want this, people think I use it as an excuse to not do something. It's not something you can just get rid of. Believe me, I've tried. It ended in more forms of embarrassment which made the whole thing worse. It's weird because I WANT to be rid of it, yet at the same time something inside has more control of it than I do which makes it impossible to do. In some situations I can bring it under control like if I start to get used to someone after awhile I'll talk a bit; but other than that it's not in my control and it pretty much rules my entire day. Not to mention existence as well.
     Finally...the finale of Ink Msters is on in TWO more days baby! It'll be sad to see the end, espeically when you're used to seeing these contestants and you've grown to like 'em.